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I can’t remember the last time I posted a blog here… hmmmm… when was it? I think that was more than a year ago… I dunno the reason why I could not maintain posting blogs… maybe I’m just too busy most of the time that I couldn’t even check the inbox of my phone if I have pending messages or something…or maybe I’m just that moody…. you know, the now-I-want-to-write-then-the-next-second-I-don’t mood… ^^ well basically, I’m really that kind of person… I dunno if I emphasize this in my previous blogs, but I would love to say it again “I’m a very change-minded person!”…that goes with the other me…”a person who love to shout his not-so-good-attitudes” ahahaha… now, enough of me… let’s talk about something else…or maybe someONE else…something or someone that is really interesting to talk about…

hmmmm… since this is my blog, I have the will to choose whatever…

let seee… well I really love to read manga… oh c’mmon…some of you might say, “grow up, brat!”…can’t blame me, I was raised during the Voltes 5 and BioMan regime when I was 10… then Pokemon and Doraemon when I was 15 then there comes Naruto and Bleach during my College days till present… ahahaha yeap…immaturity for others to think, but I would like to take it as “The ever-lasting power of Youth”ahahaha..besides I’m only 21 so I think it is still normal..not until i turned 30 then I’m still rofling over Spongebob and Patrick teasing Squidward ahahaha… EPIC FAIL!! lol…. but definitely not hentai or yaoi and yuri ahahahah…wooble wooble wooble…

anyway!!! yeap..that’s one of it…and I love anime soundtracks.. I mostly turned out to be the trying hard japanese singer who don’t even know what he was singing…lol…but of course I dun wanna be called by that!!! the nerve…I always make sure that I get even just the gist of that song into my memory before I sing it…for me, that is music…that is the uniqueness of my likehood…the more I complicate things, the more I get excited..ahahaha..except for rubix cube…dun care and dun wanna learn…wahahahah…going back…does anyone of you know the Korean singer Boa Kwon? well if you do, then were BLAST!!! you know how big my crush on her?! her moves…it really makes me crazy everytime I see her dance…please tell me…when will I meet you? when will I dance you?… ahahaha 

Aside from woobling over Boa’s dance moves, I’m also playing MMORPG!!! weeeeeeee.. here comes the child’s play again..

Yeap, I am, playing Online games… name it, I played it..

Ragnarok - Wizard

Tantra - Abikara, Deva

Perfect World - I forgot the name of the clan, but it’s a magician who can turn into a fighting red-fox and can tame monsters for skilled pets. There you go.

Khan - Miko and Assassin

Zu Online - Bead Fairy. lol.

Lineage II - Elven Elder

Cabal - Blader

02 Jam, Audition, High Street Five

Currently playing ROHAN Ph. - Lvl. 68 Int Type Dragon Sage

Out of Place?Dun know what I’m talking about?… c’mmon this is my blog, you can hit the little ‘x’ mark on the top-right corner of your screen if you really dun want to know anymore of me… ahihihihi just kidding.. please dun go… this is my first time writing a blog that has everything about me… so please have mercy… ahahahaha!!just kidding again.. you can go now… lolz

You know what? I dunno if I will say this but I’m really happy while I’m writing/typing this blog…

maybe coz I have this feeling that I’m finally cutting the Line of Limitations that was created by myself so long time ago… that I’m finally ready to step on the world of the unknown…that i’m finally moving forward… and forget the person who once I became… so regretful, full of mistakes..there are opportunities, even knowing I hesitated… the times when LOVE for me is so doubtful… the times when my family became strangers… the times when I dunno that God is my leader… the time that I became so self-centered…the times that I want to forget… and thought that it never happened, and will never happen again…

I’m really happy that I am now able to tell the difference between the older me and the new me… that despite the same face I see in front of the mirror, I am now able to smile…

hush hush… this is getting really serious…

I got more stories to tell… more of me of course…and more of the in-demand classified info and FAQs about JP… here you go…. tanan!!

I was diagnosed with brain tumor when I was 10… and doctors says that I only have less than a year to live….

hey hey hey..who typed that?! I did not typed that..does someone remotely accessing my computer… knock on wood 3x… lol…

ahahaha you see how versatile and flexible I am? from moody, to sad and then to jolly… please don’t be afraid… JP is not a psycho… lol…not yet… ahahaha

I can’t believe I’m writing this blog while taking calls and resetting a Fidelity password… ahahaha… anyway….

I remember my childhood dream… I want to become a veterinarian someday.. well I dunno when will be that someday is, or if there really is a someday for that glaring dream… but eventhough there is no way for me to reach that unreachable dream, nothing can stop me from being a pet lover…

I love animals…dogs, cats, birds, fish, frogs, chickens, picachu, bulbasur, woobafet, charmander and meowth, I CHOOSE YOU!!…

ooops sorry got carried away…

I’m planning to be a volunteer for PAWS (Philippine Animal Welfare Society). coz I always pray, if I could not be a veterinarian, then at least let me become a person who can help animals in a simple way.. then being a volunteer for PAWS that is…

I always love this creatures… one time I was given a chance to become a doctor of my dog and help her to give birth to 2 little puppies… waaaaa I miss Mommy Cimby, Ate Nani and Mommy Blink… Cimby was the preggy mommy and Nani and Blink was her 2 cute little puppies…too sad they are all angels now… Nani, suffered from this certain illness I forgot the name, when she was 2months and she eventually died…Cimby suffered the same fate too and died 5months after she gave birth…Blink, or Blinkypuppydoodle, as I call her, got a chance to become preggy and gave birth to 7 puppies, and New Years eve of 2007, she was hit by a car and died…the last time I saw her, she was lying on the street, I came running towards her to wake her up, coz I thought she was just sleeping…she is not dead, (I kept thinking that she is not dead, though I have my tears ready to fall anytime) coz there was no blood…but then I found out, she was not breathing anymore, her stomach was so flat…I carried her then I noticed the blood dropping from the other side of her mouth…that’s the time I cried.. silently crying while I’m carrying her towards the front door of our house…

…and then I talked to her, saying sorry for not able to save her…sorry for not being a good master for her, letting her crossed the street most of the time searching for food, coz I forgot to fed her…thanking her for being a good companion,  for licking my face in the morning to wake me up… letting her know that I will never forget them and that I love them so much…

Reminiscing those times, leaving my eyes watery… Gino1, Gino2, Emma, Dash, Cimby, Noni, Mej, Dagul1, Nani and Blinky, thank you for the memories..until I see you again…

I got the phone number for PAWS…I already visited their website and got the copy of their volunteer application form…who wants to come with me?! hehehe but i dun know how to start…I’m quite nervous and afraid I might not able to do the job properly…coz I still have my call center job and it’s buggin me coz of the unstability of my shift, it may cause conflict…well maybe I need to call PAWS first and inquire for more..

…being a volunteer became my 2nd dream now…and I’ll make sure that this time, I’ll definitely reach it…

 I can’t believe I manage to create a blog this long…I was just planning to make a short non-sense article about me, since I don’t have anything to do when I’m not taking calls…

hmmmm..lets see..what else is interesting about me??

yea right, JP being a bisexual…yeap..this is a fact… (whoa…wait wait, before you hate me…bakit nagtanong kb?) ahahahaha

For all my peeps who doesn’t know about this, this is not a secret anymore…I’ve been trying to tell you about this…I’m waiting for you guys to ask me about this…but you failed me… ahahaha

ok, ok, ok!!! I admit it…I’m afraid…I’m afraid because you might hate me…I’m afraid that I might lose my friends…and when you do that, I’ll end up hating you too… coz it’s unfair…did I ever asked for this?! Did God gave me an option to become what I want before I was born?…

Somehow, being a bisexual JP is good…I mean, in a sense that I’m not hurting anybody…but deep inside, I’m hurting myself…I’m hurting myself cause it makes me feel that I’m fooling them, a liar not telling them the truth…I’m taking it that way…

haaayz…this is my weakness, I don’t know how to react when it comes to my sexuality…for me it is not a big deal…maybe I’ll just walk away and let them think what they want to think about it…letting them to judge me…I dun care…

It’s up to you…yes you…If you don’t want to lose a goodlooking friend like me, then accept me..ahahaha

If you’re a homophobic… get a ballpen and stab your neck…

wait for my next post…JP’s lovelife…yeabah!!!!

beep beep beep…

c’mon… quit playin the game, dont you think its time to move on and be thankful that everything goes back were they belong?!

level up newbie!!!

pick up those pieces you left from the past… after all, those are no rubbish, treasure them instead of bluffing me…

get a life kid!!!

you told me your ready now, you said that you can do everything now… well, prove to me that you can… stop thinkin those nonsense, they are no help…

i believe in you… the last time i saw you, your shouting… "ang skin, sken lng… ang sayo, sken pren… ang hindi sken, mppsken!!" ive heard that without you sounding selfish… ive heard that from your heart translating every word into something else… something good…

be thankful kid… you are so blessed…

its all over… for me… thank god… i admit, its really heartbreakin… but its somehow made me feel happy… i dunno… maybe oprah was ryt… ^^  its hard to let go… but u can see it from hir how strong and brave u are to let go on a relationship that no longer makes u happy… how stronger and brave you are to take on the unknown… we always do a lil growin up evrytime we do a lil letting go… ^^

im still inlove… i wish i could tell who is dat person… some of you may know who it is… and many dont… but thats not important anymore… wats important is dat i had made my decision…

love doesnt make sense… thinking it wont change… stable and constant… im inlove for 7months now… and i admit, it really feels good… at first… ^^

i dunno if im lost now, and if i really am, i want to go back… to go back to where we were from the start… if only i can turn back time, and bring the love that ive lost…

to be honest, im still inlove, but not that deep at all… if i can bring it back, ill do it right now… if only i can… T_T

the trials that im encountering right now, i dunno if i can hold this on my own… i really dunno, im so down and discouraged… my feelings, my situation, myself… so complicated… ive been praying for a long time, but no answer… and im waiting… and i wont give up waiting… not until youre hir beside me…

i will regain it all… i will overcome it all… i know i will… juz stay… thats all i need

love doesnt make sense… thinking it wont change… stable and constant… it may change… but for me, it will never end…

jp_kathorze ^^

Love connotes consequences, you take it then face it… it is the negative intuition that makes u feel paranoid when your alone… love is childish, you cry becoz of simple things…facing it is like a prophecy, stronger with faith but senseless without trust…

im inlove…deeply inlove… and im giving it all because of it…i dunno if im doing d right thing, but im pretty sure im juz following my heart… i make my own stuff complicated, my family, my school, my friends and even myself… DAT LOVE WANTS TO CHANGE ME…and dats my problem… d reality dat ders such insensitiveness in me, immaturity, happy-go-luckyness, and alot like more, lotsa people believe dat im a gud person, which surely i am… and i believe dat attitudes is helping me to become a real person… a real LOVER… i mean, if dat LOVE really deserves me,it would embrace me as i am, unconditionally…despite all of my not-so-gud attitudes.. db? tama akoh?? gets nio b ako? please help me, i really dont know wat will be my next step…i want to be more carefull dis tym… i dont wanna lose my grip…

maybe it’s tym 2 move on na…tsk tsk tsk…nu b nman ung 4 days n un…and now..im starting 2 4get all about it…at msya akoh dhil dun…tanx nyweys s mga frends koh…esp. kay vanesa, s mga advices nia…nu n kya ggwen koh kng wla kng babae ka?! hehehe ty my best frend… pro ngeon….dami ng dmdating n bago s lyf koh…hihihihi yoko n munang magpahulog…nadala n me e…i dont want IT 2 hapen agen…bka d koh n mkayanan…hehehe kya double careful me ngeon…pi2litin kong mgbago…yoko n mging tanga…yoko n ren manloko…let’s stop pretending…it’ tiring…from now on..i’ll depise people who toy wid love hehehe <from d movie formula17> hehehe coz i can see…even love can pass away…though u can run after it, nde koh n gnawa..mgpapakapgod lng akoh..i dont want 2 chase it back…hahayaan koh xang bmalik…asar…prang kulang kz ung lyf koh ngeon pg ala me love… am i ryt?! mxado ata me ngmamadali…hehehe ewan koh…complicated xe…ah bsta….un lng un!!! babay!!!

bkit ganun?! kala koh nung umpisa mahal koh xa….mdinig koh lng boses nia sa fone tuwang tuwa n akoh…nde koh p xa gnong kilala…ni nde koh p nga xa nakikita e…shit kz ung boses nia, prang pana ni kupido… "hello" p lng nia, sapul n akoh sa puso…bulls eye pa…shit tlga…tpos ngeon…oo ngeon lng…as in ngeon..sept. 23, 2006…ngkita kme, sa sm…pucha…wla akong msabi kz nde koh xa nkita…hehehe…andun xa e…alam koh andun xa…mahal koh xa..nra2mdaman koh n andun xa…sabi nia nka brown daw xa…sabi koh nka blue akoh…"san ka?" txt nia sken…sbi koh "d2 akoh quantum, nglalaro ng arcade sa loob" tpos nun…wla….. ni kulay brown na tae wla akoh nkita…tpos mya mya tnxt nia akoh…"nka grin…nde n me pnyagan ni papa na palabasin…gabi n kz…" akalain moh un?? cnabi p nia ung kulay ng suot nia eh nde nman pla xa pplabsin ng papa nia…shit db? shit tlga!!!…xmpre uwe n akoh…and den ngtxt n nman xa…e2 ang nde koh mtnggap e…ung tnxt nia sken…"nkita kta sa quantum…xori pro nde kta gs2…xori ah….nde moh dn nman akoh gs2 db?"….PUTANG INA MOH!!! nde nga kta nkita tpos ssbihin moh n nde kta gs2….nde moh p nga akoh nkikilala ni nakakausap tpos ssbihin moh nde moh koh gs2….shit ka!! double shits ka tlga!!!…tpos e2 pa…e2…mkinig keo…ngtxt p xa sken…sbi nia "mahal kta pro my ngsasabi sken n nde kta gs2" PUTANG INA TLGA!!! <xnxa na sa mga mura koh ah> anu un?! gaguhan?! mahal moh koh tpos nde moh koh gs2?? pra pla xang pubic hair e….ANGGULLOHH MOH!!!…akoh umiiyak sa kwr2…tpos xa nanonood ng cne sa sm…shit shit shit…kng alam lng nia nrrmdaman koh…wla akong klaban laban…akoh c kupal..ngiintay n mkta xa at mkausap khit papano…tpos mya mya…gnun n lng txt nia sken??? NDE NIA AKOH GS2?? ewan koh OA koh cguro…xe 1st tym koh lng mareject e…gn2 pla ksakit…pro ok lng…karma koh cguro toh..dame nden me nreject at niloko….hahaha…ntatawa tlga akoh!!!…xnxa na…pro lam nio..gs2 koh umiyak…gs2 koh maglasing…gs2 koh magyosi ng magyosi!!! kya lng my ulcer akoh tsaka ubo!!! pro ok lng…ggwen koh un…w8…sabi nga pla nia…usap daw ulit kme sa fone…AYOKO!!! anu un?? pampahubag loob??!!!… yoko na!!! yoko na tlga!!!! nhihiya man akoh sbihin pro iiyak tlga akoh mmya!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaa